Disgusting, disgusting, disgusting. I always look and feel disgusting.
I’m going to be hyped up on adderall all night because I’m seeing a Neon Trees concert in the city, and then have orientation at 6am so I won’t be getting much sleep. When I’m on addies food always grosses me out. I probably won’t eat for the rest of today and tomorrow. Good.
I can feel the fat just sitting on my bones, taking over, stopping me from being beautiful. I want to be beautiful.
I ended up hanging out with a friend tonight and ate way more than I should have. When I’m upset or happy or with friends I barely pay attention to what goes into my mouth. Ugh. I lack so much self control, it’s insane.